Struggling with trusting God

Sometimes I get so angry at God for not using His power to raise up my husband. I can't understand why He would allow a gifted evangelist's voice to be taken away. It comes down to trusting God that He is in control, He is wiser than me, and He sees the future. I want our marriage to glorify God but most of the time, I feel so lost in our marriage. I have absolutely no feedback about my actions or words to my husband. So I just blindly plunder on, trying to love him the best I can but never knowing if I'm hurting him.